The whole week was painful, after injuring my back falling from the see-saw. Until this moment, it still hurts very much and cannot really move much. This is giving me so much problem and discomfort whenever I sit down for long hours, and during lecture. I cannot even bend down to pick up stuffs that is dropped onto the floor, but instead have to kneel down to get my stuffs. Taking panadol extra to reduce the pain, although it works, but then that is not solution to cure this problem and also possess danger to the body. Might consult on doctor if the pain is really too unbearable or maybe one day when I cannot even step out of the bed. But for during this critical period, it is not the time to be down, will have to be strong and endure these last few months.

Did a practice paper on Friday and that gave me much reflection and new perspective on how I should face life.

The passage was quite inspirational, with it talking about two different people went to the hospital to do a check-up on their nose, as they were afraid it might be nose cancer and so they decided if they really had been diagnosed with nose cancer, they will list out a list of things to be done and their wishes. Person A was diagnosed with nose cancer, whereas the other is fine with some minor aliment. So Person A left a note with his list of things, so as to live his life to the fullest before he dies, whereas Person B was so happy that he is fine and forgotten about the his list of things and proceed with life as usual.

During this period while Person A was still alive, he managed to fulfill many of his dreams and things he really wanted to do, and completed almost 27 items on his wish list. Whereas Person B continues with his monotonous life. Person B came across an article published by Person A on the newspaper, and called upon Person A to ask about his conditions and how has him been. Person A said: " I've been doing fine, and especially after completed the things on my wish list. How have you been then? Should be doing fine, after knowing you are fine." Person B was speechless.

Reading this passage really brought about many thoughts in my mind and reflection upon my own life so far. I realised that I do not really know what I really want, and spent the last 16 years into education. Am I doing studying in JC for what I really want or is it due to the society that forced me into this circumstances? Some things are not really within the control of everyone, however, there are also other things that you can control. For instance, one can really forgo everything and fulfill his dreams, whereas some chooses to follow what the society wants and forgo his dreams. It's a choice between what we really want and what we have to accept. Perhaps that's life. Since I am already in this situation, and do not really have much choice, but to really accept and work towards the ultimate goal at the end.

Life is short, and nobody can predict what the future holds. Accidents may cause you to regret for the rest of your life, or some don't even have the chance to regret. So, if there things you really wish to do or fulfill, don't hold back and go ahead. Don't allow yourself to regret at the end, without achieving your dreams and wishes.

Why do I lack the courage to talk to you? Why do I stumble upon my on words when I try to talk to you? Am I proving to be a weakling? Probably, perhaps and maybe. This might just be the greatest regret I will ever have.